tom_adamson

i've been thinking. about computers and the internet and sacrifice. i'm gonna say something that will sound glib, but i assure you, it's not without some seriousness. i think facebook is making me a weaker musician. well, hold on, that's like blaming the gun for the drive-by; what i mean to say is, spending so much time with social networking on-line is kind of taking over my brain. my gift of musical expression is precious to me, but it needs the right environment. it needs the right nurturing. and to borrow an analogy from computers, it needs a healthy portion of my brain's primary processor energies. my brain gets full of things from facebook and i want to check it a lot to see if i have notifications, this is not quality brain time. i look at it far too many times a day. it's like junk food for my insecurity/affirmation fixation. i've got to cut back to keep myself sane. i value my creativity and i think it's time to slow down and take the time to do longer, deeper things and not interrupt them.

the internet is a tool.
the crowbar is a tool.
you cannot base your life on a crowbar.

see what i'm getting at?

'twas a time when the internet existed, tame, in a cage and complimented the real lives we all had aside and apart from it. i think we've all moved into the cage with the lions - and it's unclear who the master is.

the only problem i see is this: facebook is a fact of life for people in my culture. it's a veritable lens through which they see the world. if i don't use it like they do, will my music be something they can appreciate? does this matter?

these are merely rhetorical questions. and this post is really my way of expressing a problem i have with myself. i'm feeling sick of social networking internet sites, but i can't seem to stop, and in-fact it's getting worse. action must be taken. i'm not sure exactly what i'm going to do, perhaps set a schedule or something. what kind of example am i setting for my kids - total dependence?

i'm going to sign off for a while.

anyone got a hack-saw?