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On my dingy street I saw something precious today, and I don't throw around that word very often. It brought a smile to my face in a depressd moment. I was sitting at the steering wheel of the van when a jalopy 90s chevy lumina rolled to a stop two doors up the street. A young man no more than 20 jumped out. He was in high spirits. The car was driven by a girl his age. He waved to her tripping over the kerb. He picked himself up and laughed; making eye contact with her. Next, he plucked a yellow tulip from the weedy flower bed. He jumped back to the kerb and stopped her from pulling away. He knocked on her window and she rolled it down and smilingly accepted the bloom. Chivalry is not dead!! Good is everywhere when you look for it. I felt less hopeless for the world.

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I was starring at a building security system key pad the other day and made a sentence out of the words on the keys: "LIGHT DOOR ON FIRE STAY AWAY, PANIC!  ARM OFF!"
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Awake My Soul and Sing of Venn Hula Hoops
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Because Levon Helm passed away Thursday, by the end of the night I was drawing on the floor of public establishment with sidewalk chalk - and the managment was okay with it.  Long story, here goes...

This week, I was involved in two different musical engagements; both very rewarding. Wednesday evening, I was part of a music team for the ordination the transitional deaconate for my friend Michelle Walker.  It was rewarding to part of team of musicians and singers who were genuinely, and simply singing God's praise.  I was on violin.  I enjoyed hanging out in the musical background and not having to be the leader.  The church was packed and everyone sang joyfully, the rafters shook.  There's nothing like that.  I think it's best when the people can drown out the praise band.  Huge PAs ruin the sense of community.

Michelle asked me to perform a song I wrote called "Enough" at her ordination.  I agreed, but my shy-ness-o-meter was off the charts.  Here's why.  I am a Christian, I do let spiritual themes into my music when I am inspired to do so, but I've never felt like I've written anything worth bringing into the context of a corporate worship service, let alone, something as solemn as someone's ordination.  But Michelle believed in it for me, and so I gave it a shot.  Afterword, a lot of people had a lot of nice things to say about it.  And so, I've decided to be more open to the idea of writing music like that.

here's the song
http://soundcloud.com/tomadamsonmusic/enough

Thursday, I had a gig with the Texarkana Two at a rock dive in Chicago, which on the surface one might say is the complete opposite.  Yes, the bar is not a consecrated sanctuary, obviously.  But there are some common things.  Both gather people, both allow people to sing songs of what is on their hearts.  We played at the Mutiny, a place on the near north side.  I could have played better, the Tex and Arkana had fun playing.  I was dead on my feet from repeat sub calls, track meets and late nights catching up on house hold things.  My throat was on fire from allergies. We finished strong and having Steve singin harmony has added so much. Highlights therefore were "Hounds of Hell" and "Street of Chicago."

What I found to be rewarding was the gathering of people.  Matt and Louis and Kevin from the Toetags are really good at inviting people and making them feel good about themselves and welcome.  Evangelists of the indie gig as it were.  Anchors were there too, David, CJ and Austin.  They brought a bunch of real cool people in tow, esp Adam Bowman and Tae.  Monroe and Todd (who was there) had a friend from Pilson come, Jason.  He was super hip and friendly at the same time.  I enjoyed picking his brain about our set.  I was talking to him when Adam Roney and Lizzy Martin stepped out of a cab.  I was elated.  Sarah Filler came after the show.  Great conversations among circles of friends were happening like a hula hoop party at a Venn diagram factory.  Ooh and the venue had a killer juke box (the CD kind- selections almost rivaling Cincy's The Comet)  We introduced the staff to the putting olives in beer.

I learned of the olive trick in Marion.  We were reintroduced to the idea at Constant Spring in Goshen last week when we were writing our set list for opening the Kansas Bible Company show.  I got to busy, but I wanted to write a entry just about that trip and show called (after the Simon and Garfunkel song) "A Homecoming, sort of."  The homecoming part was being with Jake and James and Luke and Mike all the (12) boys and old Goshen friends like Zach Clouse.  Our set was a joy to play in that venue.  It felt comfortable and our presence started gentle and ended energetic.  I introduced KBC and told the crowd that they would be playing their new record in its entirety.  Man it was really good!  They have grown as band and song writers.  There is more playfulness and contrast in the new songs, and a few hair raising moments, such as the all accapella "Hymn of St. Vertigo." (which could actually work in postmodern churches)  The "sort of" part was the party afterword.  I got to meet with and reconnect with some very special Goshen friends from the old days, but that wasn't going to last all night. After about two hours the house we were at was overrun with about 75 Goshen College students,  strangers to us, we (Trathen, Monroe, Elizabeth, and I) were just standing in the front yard.  We had the feeling we'd rather be home, so we slipped into the night.  We will be back to Goshen though, soon, summer most likely, there were a good number of excited people at the prospect.

So the sidewalk chalk thing: as we were driving back to Valpo, Todd had the idea that we should visit Steve Ball who plays Thursdays at Duffy's and see if we could do a version on the Band's "The Weight" with him in honor of Levon Helm.  Well we go there and he was done.  But Dave, the manager on duty was in a silly mood. He said welcome to arts and crafts night.  He was having people draw on the backs of paper plates and use sidewalk chalk on the floor.  We drew rockets, horses, wooly mommoths, trees, chess boards. It felt great to be creative in a sedate place. Gypsy Heart would say, "lighting fires in the ghost."

World Book Is Better
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Today I used a physical Encylopedia - the book kind, for an hour or so.  I've had the chance to do this two other times within the last month. Once again, on Friday, I subbed for a teacher who has the ability to afford me a lot of reading time.  Man it felt great just to sit and read and think about what to write or talk about or say from stage!  As I went to find an article in a 1968 edition of The New Book of Knowledge, which was in repose along a forgotten bookshelf in the resource room to which I was assigned, I couldn't help but be drawn to scan the neighboring articles.  So after reading about T.S. Elliot, who was my main target, I read part of the history of Queen Elizabeth I.  Then I read a great deal about electricity.  Soon after I flipped some pages and fell among a long article about Egypt.  This act of encyclopedia browsing was a childhood pastime of mine and it felt as gratifying as it was natural to me.

Contrast this use of reference material to that of the 5th hour speech class I taught.  I escorted the students to the library where they were doing research for a speech.  Not one student touched a book during the whole class.  For their resources, everything was found on-line.  I felt so sad to see them literally surrounded by a wealth of knowledge around them and they were blind to it.  Search engines do not awaken the brain in the same way that walking among shelves in a section about a topic does.  You stand there and move your eyes and hands, you see multiple books at the same time, you may even find something seemingly unrelated and learn from it by accident.  Wikipedia pales to a book encyclopedia in the same way.  When you want to find something, you search, it comes up (and things related), but what you miss are the random things that would be alphabetically listed in a book encyclopedia.

I found connections between all four articles I read, T.S. Elliot was American by birth, but later in life joined the Church of England and later became a royal subject and citizen of the UK.  Queen Elizabeth's Roman Catholic/Protestant compromises in church practice set the tone for Anglicanism for centuries to come; even today.  Many of the first pyramid archaeologists were British and their efforts were made much easier with the advent of electricity and other technologies.

I'm not convinced one could do all that synthesis with the narrow method of information presentation used by computer based encyclopedias.  And yet, one by one, publishers are dropping their book bound encyclopedia product. This new way of gathering knowledge will change they way people think, and act, fundamentally.  

Lilac At Midnight
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I love walking across the yard at midnight. On the south side of the house, there is a deep, dark shadow.  As you walk into it, you cannot see anything, but you are overcome with the fragrance of lilac blossoms, sweet and thick.

I was a high school sub today, I did a lot of reading from random books I found laying around.  I read a lot of a book about plants and animals that people are afraid of most of the time, it was funny.  I read T.S. Elliot and Emily Dickinson out of a lit book.  Emily Dickinson was 31 when she was first published.  I find comfort in that.  Greatness doesn't need to happen your twenties.  My walk under the lilac arbor reminded me of a verse from Emily (one that C.S. Lewis and N.T. Wright could dig on) :

"God preached, a noted Clergyman-
And the sermon is never long,
So instead of going to Heaven, at last-
I'm going, all along."

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Do fish in aquariums watch people?  I mean the big tourist attraction ones.  Do the manta ray mommies crouch close to their offspring and say, "Ohh honey, look at that big human...hmm, that's a funny one."
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Teacher's lunch room: Men can eat lunch a lone quite contented.  Women, I observe want to congregate.
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I talk to birds
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I was walking Elizabeth to her van earlier today, when I heard a simple two tone bird-call from up in the pines.  So I whistled back in the same pitch and cadence.  She giggled. I said, "What? You never talk to birds?  I started doing that when I was a kid."  And I did, I would walk around outside and try to whistle back to birds in the same way they called out, thinking we were conversing.

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5 stories sbove Hammond Indiana on a roof top, Steve and I stood shivering and laughing at the same time. Above our heads, the night sky was brewing up one of winter's last snow storms. Down below, in the tiny Blue Room Cafe, our friend Andy zipf was part way into his set of music. He has one of the best one man shows I've ever seen, by virtue of unique audience paricipation. The Texarkana Two and I opened the show. Before and after our set, we became fast friendly aquaintences with the staff of the cafe that night. The girl taking the door tipped me and Steve on to the roof access. This was a building erected in the 30s and the elevator had manual doors with bars that you slid open. The door to the roof was ancient and held into place by cement blocks.

After the show as we hit the road home, snow started coming down in white out conditions. The four of us met up again in Franklin house. Four inches of snow greeted midnight of my birthday, the bartender gave me a free beer. But from the moment the snow stopped and forward in time, the weather got warmer. It was sunny on my 34th birthday. After a bloody mary at Passtimes with Elizabeth, my birthday night ended where it began, at Franklin where E and I got some midnight snack fries.

Tuesday was super windy and unseasonbly warm. At night, after the kids went to sleep, E and I put on our grandfather's green coats: me, my grandpa Adamson's green wool over coat; Eliz her grandpa's green parka. We rolled up and down the street on bikes and talked over the sound of spring wind through pine trees and naked maple boughs. This was my favorite moment of the week.

We paid off two old credit cards with tax return money, it felt great, a little surge of power. To do this, we had to forgo some splurges or fun money purchases. We talked last fall about getting one or two tablet computers. But no matter, Thomas Jefferson didn't have an ipad, nor Dylan Thomas, nor Bob Dylan. I spent my whole childhood living without the technology of the day, and I think that I was better off for it. But now, as I did more so then, I feel the temptation to do what everyone else is doing. Furthermore as both an artist and minister, I constantly am reflecting on the right balance of not alienating everyday people and staying connected to The Real.

These days I think I'll err on the side of alienating people. One of the guys at the show Sunday night said he could tell I was a great artist and he guessed I was born in March. I was flattered. He was a really neat college aged kid, he dug our tunes and got "it". These tiny connections give me hope that what I'm doing is worthwhile, even though we are no where near being a commercial viability.

Overture to "Tanhauser" by Wagner on the classical station almost reduced me to tears today in a glow of childhood memories. The fact that it made me think of the Bugs Bunny send up, did not effect the affect. I thought of Jon and Betsy and Sarah and little Joe and Jim and baby Mary in pajamas eating cereal on some sunny Saturday morning of the early, early 90s, laughing together.

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I hear the hills
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They call for me. So often when I'm driving around and I see dark, low clouds inbetween the trees in the horizon, I imagine they are mountains. Then I miss Appalachia.

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...and loving it.



the vivian girls - ca. 2008 in my favorite state. they are a band
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I can't get enough of indie rock lately...i.e. lesser known bands, fuzzy, fussy bands, bands that are anti-production, bands that would get heckled in biker bars.  I also can't enough of 60s/70s country music.  Thanks to Steve and Monroe and my Uncle Steve.  More on this in my next post.

well kids, my laptop has been in the repair shop for a few weeks and as such posting to LJ has not been convenient.  I do want to start a new crop o' blogs.  The last month has been really restorative for me.  I feel like I am hitting a stride and in the prime of my life. We'll see how long this lasts.

What's been contributing to this upswing in creativity and productivity?  
-I've been doing a read through the Bible in a year chart, not straight through, but this chart was made by a Roman Catholic priest, it breaks up the major sections of Scripture and blends them with the correct part of the Liturgical calendar.  In Christmas tide, I read all the Psalms.  This was very helpful, I always tend to get depressed in the new year and the Psalms are very emotional. In Epiphany, the Wisdom books have been great with reminding me to live rightly and seek the right priorities, this goes with the yearly feeling of putting aside the post-holiday blues and get to work on new year's resolutions.  In Lent I'll read the prophets, this makes sense because they call for holiness.  Mentally, it's been therapeutic to have thoughts and language in my brain that aren't pop-culture or virtual reality Facebook web-news feeds etc.  

-Not having a screen to live in for an entire month was very cleansing in and of itself.  I spent more time listening to the wind in trees and watching sunspots move across floors.

-The gigging seson has begun anew.  I had three really fun shows with the Texarkana Two these past two weeks. More on that in the next post too.  All the practicing we did for it was enlivening.  I have grown closer to the guys than before.  Steve has become like a brother to me, I'm really enjoying his friendship.  And after 8+ years, I also feel like I getting to know Monroe on a personal level, deeper than just hanging out or doing projects together.

-Elizabeth has been working a new job and this has forced me to take a more proactive role in keeping our relationship strong since we spend less time together.  I really feel closer to her than I ever have in all our years together.  I am also spending more time with my kids.  Our conversations have been very meaningful.  I like making my kids laugh, they tell me I'm a very funny Dad.  I hope I can have enough self-awareness not to overdo it when they are teens, which is a time fast approaching.

-I've been washing a lot of dishes.  I also re-read the Practice of the Presence of God, by Brother Lawrence.  He talks about how much he was "averse" to kitchen duties, but he used the opportunity to practice being aware and appreciating God's presence.  I remember reading that passage in high school when my brothers and sisters and I took turns washing all the family dishes (which oftentimes could be a lot when there were 8 to 10 people at the table nightly.)  As a teen, I tried to think of washing dishes as spiritual discipline, although I complained more than contemplated!  It's been a joy to pick up that line of thought again as a grown man.

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45 degrees Faren-heat this January 6.  Feels great!

Here's a little video I made with my kids to a surf rock instrumental i recorded with John Drury this past fall.  I was in love the idea of the juxtaposition of sunny beach music and yucky Indiana winter.  And "you're welcome" because after considering the offer for a few days, I have decided not to "monetize" my youtube account.  If I activate it, the videos you see on my page would have those random ads either before or the box ones which come up and down during the content.  Yeah, maybe I could have made a few dollars over the course of a year, but in the grand scheme of things it won't be that much and I really, really think that we are over exposed to advertisements as a society.  I think there are more honest ways to make a buck and if you appreciate it, buy some of my music. (how's that for an ad!)
I reccomend this kind of activity to any family with a camcorder, make a movie!
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Started out the new year right with a visit to the Chiropractor's.  I'm in pretty good shape, i'm happy to report. He did some adjusting to my neck and back.  A few of the instruments he used were really gentle, they just tapped in specific points or nerves. The first few times i went to the Dr. I thought "these don't seem to do anything."  But as i relaxed and trusted in the method and authority of the doctor, I could feel them making a difference for good.  I had an epiphany this Tuesday, face down on the table, that these small taps are a lot like the weekly celebration of the Eucharist.  To one on whom the significance of method and authority of the Sacrament is lost, the tiny bite of bread and sip of wine might seem pointless, accomplishing very little.  But as we trust in God, learn more and are faithful to remember Christ's redemptive acts with our brothers and sisters, we will feel and know the difference for good.

A couple weeks ago Elizabeth and I did some "prospecting" in the garage and attic, we came across a "lode" of college text books, which are now gone, but there were a few novels from a Brit-Lit class she kept.  I started reading "Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde" this week.  It's a little odd to read a story when you know how it goes and ends. I'm trying to read it like I've never heard it before.  (But it's a fast read and I like the time period it's set it.  I can see myself in the role of the lawyer.  I can feel my gloves, the spats on my ankles, the soho fog coming in the my hansom cab, the jangle of the reins for horses, gas lamps.)  Anyway, this act of reading a story when you know how it goes reminded me of the liturgical year.  Year after year, we tell God's story.  We know how it goes; we know how it ends, and yet when we do try to "read it" like we've never heard it before?  

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Now i'm going to have coffee with Dennis Michaelis of Red Umbrella, he just moved into a new house and hopefully he'll have news of the new Red Umbrella record.


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